i decided to do it today because it’s the 5th anniversary of my ng account. i still remember hearing about it from a picnic with family, and hearing about flash games there being unsupported when flash was gonna die, so it was kinda like the y2k bug for me.
2025 was not very good for me. i was struggling and feeling like i was going crazy and that i was becoming useless and dumb. i felt like i had no place in the world and was just a dumb lab rat. i also felt more scared and paranoid, and feeling that i didnt rlly matter and shouldnt even have aspirations.
however it was not all shit. i actually started becoming a lot more productive but its taken a long time. i feel more in touch with my emotional side, and feeling freer. i still worry heavily but i just hope i can survive 2026 and not lose it.
![Cobalt Star LXI: Air [2K25]](https://art.ngfiles.com/thumbnails/5059000/5059390.webp?f1766968468)
![Bassbane + Hyfix - Our Simulacra [TRACK ART]](https://art.ngfiles.com/thumbnails/5058000/5058702.webp?f1766948657)