💥 TRENDING: Id/psychonotnormal - Collection

5 years of suicidal thoughts, feelings, self harm and attempts until i finally got better and felt like i was alive again, i could breath again. it was beautiful, waking up without wanting to off myself or thinking about it, the best feeling in the world. i took a walk outside, saw the sun for the first time in months, opened a window, breathed again, ate three meals, got a good nights sleep, talked to friends, laughed a genuine laugh and really smiled. only for it all to come crashing back down again. back to waking up feeling like ♥♥♥♥, if i even slept without more nightmares and trauma, sat in the dark and blinked away the daylight hours again. is this some sick twisted game? give me a glimpse of happiness, hope for a good life, a new start only to rip it away. is this it then? another 5 years to feel that way again for a week? ♥♥♥♥ you for making me try to make even a semblance of happiness again. ♥♥♥♥ you world for making me feel okay for a week. ♥♥♥♥ you for giving me the best damn week of my life.