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poetic // 1 - written by kate

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>tree village
what excuses do you make?
happiness is hard to find.
i didn't catch a break.
maybe I am dying inside?
february, been so lonely.
it's been so long since I felt your touch,
and I couldn't care less if I deserve this.
i will never survive the sting inflicted.


>thatsthefaceyoumakewhenyoureallylosesomething
am i coming through clearly now?
i remember when i couldn't make a sound.
am i coming through clearly now?
wake and i think-
why was i put here?
i don't give a ♥♥♥♥ enough,
i don't give a ♥♥♥♥ enough.
wake and i think-
why was i put here?
i don't give a ♥♥♥♥ enough,
i don't give a ♥♥♥♥ enough.
what is the difference-
between a good and a bad day?
nothing... at... all...
everything is out of place now,
so i stay in my room 'til it spins.
i can feel a surge of sharpness,
like a fresh wound in the wind.
we're about to start a new chapter,
serendipitous in nature with this spin.
i will be here for you until the year after,
and even after we both give into death.
how do i know what it means to be saved?
how do i dance with two feet in the grave?
how do i justify a reason to stay?
i wrap my troubles up and dream them away.
i wrap my troubles up and dream them away..
i wrap my troubles up and dream them away...
i wrap my troubles up and dream them away....


>dying out west[soundcloud.com]
all this stress
look at this mess
look at my head, i'm better off dead
dying out west
trying my best
laying in bed, i was coming down then
no more pain locked away
i go insane
i'm so insane
in my brain everyday, i go insane
i'm so insane
...
look in the mirror
i see a demon, i'm barely breathing
my shadow is bleeding
on the highway, baby i'm speeding
i'm leaving the city, you should be with me
two weeks with the same old jeans on
i know you want to die
baby this is your theme song
baby just hold on
baby just hold on


>rot[soundcloud.com]
let me just rot right here in my house
let me just die right here in this town
knife in my lap sitting crying in my car
a couple more days and i'll get out the dark
days feel empty
blend together
i want nothing more to do with my life here
i'm just fed up
and i'm bitter
i've become something i don't want to be
tell me
can you numb my pain
can you numb my pain
i seek refuge in knowing
that i'll leave someday
tell me
can you kill me soon
can you kill me soon


>forgive me[soundcloud.com]
i'm a mistake honestly
i got the switchblade here with me
i got some drugs too inside of me
i owe my mom an apology
i owe my mom an apology
i wanna die i'm sorry
drugs got them on me
i'm feeling like a zombie
hoping you could kill me
baby kill me
baby if u kill yourself,
baby will you bring me?
baby please just kill me
ion wanna live i'm sorry
i'm gonna kms forgive me
i wanna die mom i'm sorry
i wanna cut till i'm bleeding out
i ♥♥♥♥♥♥ up and i'm bleeding now


>pacificgrovedreams[soundcloud.com]
i've seen you on these days-
days your hearts gone.
when we're hearts apart-
even though nothing is wrong.
when i'm feeling torn-
and you're feeling hurt.
when drowning in the ocean-
wouldn't be the worst.
when your bodies right there-
but you're miles away.
i saw your smile-
get washed away with the rain.
i see the hurt-
shown so clear in your face.
i don't wanna see you-
sit here in this pain.
i wish you weren't so distant...


>suffocate me[soundcloud.com]
i can’t face
that pain
that weight..
i don’t wanna feel like that anymore
all black clothes on an all white corpse
i don’t wanna breathe...
just suffocate me
help me sleep, i’ll take anything
and i float away...
all i wanna do, is close my eyes with you
take my time with you
suicide for two...
i close my eyes, and then i drift away
into the light, i wont forget your face
i promise i... remember everything
about that night… when you just walked away
we left this conscious state
into a better place


>with u[soundcloud.com]
i saw you across the room
it was destiny
i got a feeling and just knew
you were meant for me
i already knew
like from a memory
i know you felt it too
like it was meant to be
all the feelings that i felt
walking up to you
it's like they wanted me to know
it was always you
all my ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ dreams
they were all about you
pretty baby all along


>empty heart[soundcloud.com]
i got an empty heart with no one by my side
left in silence, tears drip from her eyes
when i wake up with you on my mind
i can't face it i know all the lies
when i wake up with you on my mind
i can't face it, i'm dead inside
i been cold for way too long
empty heart still beats while i'm writing this song
sing along - ion want nobody hitting my phone
...
should've known, all alone, all along..
too many days of never going outside
too many nights of never feeling alive
but i cant sleep when you're not by my side for the night


>enough is enough[soundcloud.com]
"how come when people have mental damage,
it's always an active imagination?
how come every organ in your body can get sick and you get sympathy, except the brain?
so you've got this nagging looptape that goes over and over again that drives you insane
so you see, what the problem is? what once made you safe, now drives you insane."
somebody tell me, am i enough?
am i wrong to be this way?
am i wrong to feel this pain?
it's like every single day is wasted away and i hate it.
so let's face it, nobodies special.
a sea of faces, i'm just one of the several.
i live a life that i cannot call my own.
why live a life, if it only feels stressful?
i guess it's just because i don't know no better than this.
that's why i cope with my emptiness
i enjoy my loneliness.
they will never understand.
i will never be like them.
they will never understand
i will never change myself
somebody tell me, am i enough?
am i wrong to be this way?
am i wrong to feel this pain?
it's like every single day is wasted away and i hate it.
so let's face it, nobodies special.
a sea of faces, i'm just one of the several.
i live a life that i cannot call my own.
why live a life, if it only feels stressful?
i run out the door, where the time goes.
where did my life go?
where did my mind go?
i'm stuck in a cyclone
i'm lost in the chaos
a world without high hopes
i'm hoping mine pays off.
that's the best that i can do for now
but it's still better than you somehow.
so i stay in the shadows, i won't make a sound.
please do not let me out, no do not let me out.
i don't need nobody to tell me i'm enough.
i'm not wrong to be this way.
i'm not wrong to feel this pain.
i know every single day i'm wasting away, and i hate it.
so let's face it, nobodies special.
a sea of faces, i'm just one of the several.
i live a life that i cannot call my own.
and i survive, i don't care if it's stressful.


>empty dreams[soundcloud.com]
running myself in the ground
just to find out how to get out
losing sleep over my dreams
dreaming i could go to sleep
i'm sailing on an empty sea
with drips of mistakes splashing me
i'm flying in a cloudy sky
with foggy hope stuck in my eyes
in my eyes
my eyes
i'm sailing on an empty
sailing on an empty dream, life is strange when i can't sleep.
up all night just with my thoughts, i can't seem to shut them off.
tell me why do you wanna die?
tell me why do you wanna die?
tell me why do you wanna die?
it's alright...


>dakota
laying here,
i'm wondering
am i really everything-
you said i was, or not?
speaking of this dead proposal
i am colder than dakota
when she turned blue on the floor..


>deathbed[soundcloud.com]
when every thought brings so much pain-
it's hard to explain.
i don't wanna feel a n y t h i n g .
it's hard to explain.
i don't wanna change.
something in my brain,
telling me to hate.
all i ever say,
i don't wanna change.
something in my brain,
won't go away.
far from home, where you'll find me,
made my bed and i'll finally lay in it.
lay in it.
far from home, where you'll find me,
made my deathbed and i'll finally lay in it.
i'll lay in it.
...
don't wanna do it by myself,
but i don't want no help,
the only way's to runaway
and write a story to tell.
...
far from home, where you'll find me,
made my bed and i'll finally lay in it.
lay in it.
far from home, where you'll find me,
made my deathbed and i'll finally lay in it.
i'll lay in it


>dial tone[soundcloud.com]
i'm starting to think that my worst enemy is myself
when i can't be what you want me to be what are we
and how can i make amends when all i'm fighting is me
and the drive up north seems a whole lot longer alone
when the foliage reminds me of a time spent home
i swear to god if i could i would call your phone
when i try all i find is the sound of the dial tone
...
i'm starting to think that i'm nothing
nowhere's where i'm going
last night it was snowing
i saw you in the doorway
i thought i'd forgot you
but your voice came calling
i felt dead inside
like i amount to nothing
these letters last forever
when i read them all back
i can feel you in my heart
but your touch is what i lack
one perfect night's not enough
you got me tumbling by
when i'm i was with you no other feeling can match
you leave me passionate
but left aside
i just want to feel like i was good enough
you leave me broken down
lonely night
i hate it so much
baby hate is so much
maybe nothing lasts
but that's alright
i'll always be waiting here
you leave me passionate
but left aside
i just want to feel like i was good enough
i miss you so bad...
i miss you so bad...
i miss you so bad...
i miss you so bad...


>black sheep
you can ask me how i'm doing, i'll say fine
even though the pain is killing me inside
you can ask me how i'm feeling, i'm alright
you want the truth, then you can look me in the eyes
you can ask me how i've been, i'll say okay
i never gave a ♥♥♥♥ about my feelings anyways
you can ask me how's it's been, i'll say it's great
i never wanted your sympathy in the first place
and i know i really mean that in the worst way
i'd share my side but i don't think you'd ever see it
i turn my back on everybody, even me
i'd say i'm sorry but i don't know what it'd mean
black nails, black sheep
i was never meant to be
i'm in the dark, but i can see
this world was never meant for me
should i stay or should i go?
i've been walking down this road
as of lately i've been homesick but i'm still so sick of home
i'm feeling just like a ghost
i'm nobody, i'm alone
got no body, just a soul, my back's been on these ropes
my heart's been getting cold
my skin's been getting numb
my mind's been getting dull, i see what i've become
i see what i've become
i see what i've become
i see what i've become
i see what i've become
black nails, black sheep
i was never meant to be
i'm in the dark, but i can see
this world was never meant for me...
this world was never meant for me...
this world was never meant for me...
this world was never meant for me...


>where dreams come true[soundcloud.com]
your tears are diamonds in the sky
if you stay with me i'm alright
the place in town where dreams come true
needed this so long where the ♥♥♥♥ were you
i just moved out, i'm not feeling right
i'm all alone, you should spend the night (i wish)
we graduated a few years back
want a happy ending and fade to black
i need you now
and i can see the moments in your kiss
i need you now
it'll all be over one day promise this
i need you now
i'll buy the perfect ring and you'll feel bliss
i need you now
i'm baffled how it all has come to this
and every night
i rest my head
upon this pillow
and wish for death


>perfect nightmare[soundcloud.com]
feels like i'm drowning and i cant breathe
the walls are caving in around me
i call out your name but you cant hear me
hold out my hands but i cant reach
i saw your face in a dream
staring blankly at me
and i cant let it go
cant you just let me be
my gaze turns to the sky
as i fall backwards i'm
taken back to a time
when you were still with me
i had a dream i was sinking at the bottom
wake up reach out and grab the bottle
drink a fifth just to stop my head from pounding
in either state of mind i find myself drowning
i really miss you now
when i look out
and see the ocean and the clouds
smell the salt and hear the sounds
i can almost hear your voice now
leave my body out in the middle of nowhere
after i'm dead
so the vultures can pull me apart
and i wont have this pain in my head
emotional lies
in this pool i will die
at the bottom i'll lie
end my emotional life.


>it's been a while[soundcloud.com]
i see your face in the sky
i hear your words in my mind, i
i feel your breath in my spine.
i've had these thoughts fly by a thousand times.
i see your face in the sky.
i hear your words in my mind, i
i feel your breath in my spine.
i lay at night i cry, please tell me why.


>banshee[soundcloud.com]
i can hear the banshee screaming
please wake me, i must be dreaming
growing up is just not worth it
i know i'm not ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ perfect
what the ♥♥♥♥ could be my problem
whatever it is i hope i solve it
and as the days go by-
wish i could turn back time
lay with a crooked spine
rotting away at night
i'm ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ drowning
i'm ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ drowning
and as the years went by-
i grew so weak inside
i let my ghost escape
now all i loved has died
i'm ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ drowning
i'm ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ drowning
leave me the ♥♥♥♥ alone
you'll only end up hurt
i'm like broken glass
buried beneath the dirt
somebody save me
somebody save me
next time you see my face
it will be cold and blue
you're like the earth and sky
and i'm the winter gloom
somebody save me
i'm ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ drowning
sombody save me
i'm ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ drowning


>magical[soundcloud.com]
i miss the times we had
and i miss the laughs we shared
i miss staying up till midnight
and the times when everything felt right
when the blood drips
i feel nothing
i can't discuss it
i need something to numb it
baby girl don't hate me
the sadness ate me
now i'm so sedated
on the ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ daily
i'm sorry baby
find me where the pain be
in the dark creating
i see the light and its fading
...
i'm ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ sorry i cant live no more
i ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ love you girl you're magical
baby take it all away
i don't wanna feel this pain
i don't wanna feel this way
i can see the stars on your face
i was snorting cocaine
wanna ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ blow my own brains
i-
i don't even have a plan right now
cause i can't see tomorrow
cause i don't even really wanna wake up


>modestgoals[soundcloud.com]
they give you modest goals and honest roles to play
they told me no and i turned and ran away
calling me was a whole new life something i've never felt
beckoning like screaming words not spoken they were yelled
in the end if i'm the one to blame
i will take my life and cut my ties today


>empty[soundcloud.com]
i'm frustrated, patience breaking, i feel sleep deprived.
sometimes i want to sleep forever, but can't end my life.
sometimes i need to breathe, just so i can feel alive.
sometimes i breathe, just to remind me that i'm dead inside.
i feel dead, i feel dead, i feel dead inside.


>when i weep[soundcloud.com]
dont ask me how i feel
you know how bad it is.
lately i cant sleep
im breaking down, im weak.
i don't wanna wake up,
i don't wanna breath.


>slow forever down[soundcloud.com]
i can't feel your touch
slow forever down
i need you, i know
let me hold you close, when we're all alone
tell me that you love- me i need your touch
make me fall in love again
i just need you close, you're the touch i know
you let feel like home, you left me in the snow
i swear you made me numb
we glowed when touched
slow forever down....can we slow forever down?
i just wanna know, slow forever down
i just wanna know, if you'll be mine forever now
my hearts beating so loud
...
but i-
just wanted to be the one
that you cried on, when things got tough
when it seems like nothings going right
and it's all too much
you're worth so much
...
i loved the way that you felt on my skin
could we please do this again? somehow
and if we can't do this again
i will not blame you for what happened that night
i don't even know whats down the road-
but i'll always know your heart is my home.


>happiness
drowning in the lake
i only left her for a couple of seconds
and now she's gone
waking up for what?
as i pace back and forth
maybe it's time to move away
but what would that prove anyway?
listening to the answering machine
over and over
only to hear your voice one more time
just one more time
it's not your fault, that's what they all keep saying
that's what they all keep saying
blaming myself, there's nothing left


>regret[soundcloud.com]
i'm trying feel alive, but i'm dead inside.
i walk with with the moon and the night by my side
my friends and my family, they give me some purpose.
so they don't deserve this, nobody's perfect.
i am nobody without imperfection,
i die every night, every day ressurection
my shadows the closest thing to understanding me
are you understanding me?
i feel alone,
even when somebodies right there beside me i feel alone.
it's nobodies fault but mine, i'm sorry i still feel alone.
even when somebodies right there beside me i feel alone.
it's nobodies fault but mine, i'm sorry i still feel alone.
i feel alone.


>neither here, nor there
take me back to 2008feb 21st 2017
i been thinking bout the better days
on my life i know i got it all
i would trade it just to get a taste
...
i've been rolling around down on memory lane
i can't help but notice i got this on my brain
and i heard you been well
me i can't say the same
i been sleeping in late
i wish it would stop
i know this is a lot
but sometimes i get caught
and confined in my mind
and i think about what it would feel like to die
would my family forgive me where my body lie?
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥-
man i'm so sick of waking up with a hole in my heart
It's not fair.
i'm a mess
might go away for a while so i thought you should know
that life goes on either way so you gotta let it go.


>peace of mind
wash from my mind to be done
i needed grip to hold on
i can't believe that you're gone
i feel the guilt in my bones
wash out my mouth from your tongue
wipe memories of your touch
just look how far we had come
now, look at the speed we have fell
your nail marks cover my back
hard to detach
hard to fall back
when you own me
teeth marks cover my waist
tears on my face
hard to erase
what you've shown me
wash from my mind to be done
i needed grip to hold on
i can't believe that you're gone
i feel the guilt in my bones


>away[soundcloud.com]
my life has been over for a while
and i don't wanna lie, but i hate being sober
say "i'm too young, i've got way too much in front of me"
but i don't care-
i just wanna ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ get away
just get away...
a w a y...
a w a y...


>we'll be the darkness[soundcloud.com]
i'll kill myself because it's fun to pretend
and it means, i'll be closer to you.
i'll let you know that i'm the lowest it gets
if it means, i'll be closer to you.
let's name stars that have already died
after eachother
the end of the world seems a little less lonely with you.


>ƃuᴉɥʇʎuɐ ɹoɟ dn ǝɹǝʍ noʎ uǝɥʍ ssᴉɯ ᴉ
i remember thinking to myself-
"you're never gonna get older"
and the feeling of-
believing anything i tell myself over
just one more time, for the people who only grow colder
...
t h i n g s a r e t u r n i n g
m y v i s i o n s b l u r r i n g
i'm saying facts
in whats occuring


>dancing in the dark[soundcloud.com]
when i wake up in the morning i just ask myself,
should i keep on ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ trying or just cap myself?
i can overhear you lying i just ask myself,
is it worth,
all the pain?
is it worth,
all my days?
is it worth,
all my time?
can i find,
me a way?
take your time this is fate
all them other boys are lame
come with me and save the day
i got all this time to waste
every single day-
i feel pressure in my heart and in my brain
do you understand the time that your with me
every time that you take my breath away
me and you together dancing in the dark


>my eyes