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Love you friend

Wanted to come to your profile since I tried to kill myself a few weeks ago. I've never stopped thinking about you. I understand what it's like to be in so much pain you can't feel anything. Not even feel the pain of cutting through your own skin. Your death was so monumental to me I wanted to live on so you could see the world through my eyes. And yet I feel I've already failed. If you had been alive all this time through my eyes, I would've just continued the pain. I don't care. I'd be in pain every day if you still were here. Pain is inevitable. It's a given. I'd have chosen you as my every day pain. I'd hold you between my arms until the whole world ends.

In september, your minecraft account will no longer be able to be migrated. All our memories will be lost, speaking evidence-wise. The more time passes by, the less evidences I have that you existed. That's my only regret. I wish things weren't ephemeral. Goodbye, Elebits, goodbye, Katsu, for real this time.

♥ always the amazing Katsu ♥

I know you know I know you got that power
That power
Oh, oh oh

Thinking of Kate today. It feels good seeing everyone's tributes in the comments - if anyone needs to talk, or if you're struggling with your own thoughts of suicide, this is an open invitation to reach out to me.

Any friend of Kate's is a friend of mine, no exceptions. Love you all!

I forget posting on your birthday, but its still not too late now. I haven't forgotten of you. Its my birthday now after all, as we shared this month. There's things I wanna say besides just promising we'd be friends forever. I remember you for every song you shared with me and you made it exciting for me to start projects with others online. Like when I helped you with your EDM Music channel on Youtube, Hime Network. You offered me comfort, critical thinking and finding joy in formulating better opinions, because you knew I was so young and easily influenced when we met, yet you found a liking in me. Everyone is going to die, so perhaps you thought of your dead as just one more, but I would have liked to know who Kate was gonna become if she had given herself a chance to write her own story. I can only hope Kate wasn't impressible to the kid I was because, now as an adult, that's what I would have told her.

You had such ambition and wanted to strive higher, and when life hit you reducing your scope, perhaps feeling you had a disadvantage over everyone else made you feel like life was a game theory from all the games you played and we played together. All I really wish is that we could have spent more time together to truly know who you were, yet in your story you only were planning but your ending. I knew only what you showed me, even if within your head it felt like lies. You felt you lied to me because you couldn't accept you were a girl. I accepted you with all the lies because you were authentic. Your passing made me cherish the time I spend with people online and the words I chose when I talk because life has so many things I don't want to miss on, like I sometimes forget all the conversations we had because I was so young and steam nor skype saved none of them.

It's nice to see the people she's touched leave comments here. It's an unusual sort of therapy, thinking she might actually read these messages. She was my best friend in high school, I knew her long before she transitioned and witnessed many versions of herself, like the many forms we take on throughout our own lives. Our favorite snack was hot cheetos, we'd eat them at sleepovers and when we skipped school. Our inside joke was this weird slurping sound, it never made sense but always made both of us laugh. Kate/Noah/Katsu, however you knew her, was one of the single coolest humans I've had the pleasure of meeting. A natural leader, born charismatic and wise beyond her years. Hard to imagine the turmoil she must have been silently struggling to overcome. Many, many people love and miss you Kate! Thank you for keeping her memory, friends.

We will never forget you. I love you for teaching me to not give up on living. this isn't any longer awkward. i am here for you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G9y0JJfWKIo I wanna be somebody. Im gonna be somebody. Now, now, slow your role, keep your head low. Your life is a joke, don't make this awkward.

We still miss you

my seed is still yours

your memory lives on dear friend

You said I'd forget you but I think of you constantly. I hate to cary the burden that you're still in this world if I keep you alive with my thoughts, only to keep forgetting as the years go by. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PoIiT8OoGF

I think about you constantly.

Its been a while, 2 years I think. I wish I could've been a better friend. Miss you.

it's been 2 years huh

You chose anything over this life.. you gave yourself away for something better

Miss you, fam

Still find it hard to believe you're gone

one year. miss you

Happy Christmas, Kate

happy thanksgiving, i'll always be thankful for your friendship.

<3 good to see ur ok Xaura. Miss ya.

been a while since i logged into steam
probably will be the last time
no reason to come on here anymore
felt like i should leave one last comment because of the date today
i probably should have left one on your birthday last month
but it's just too hard to log onto steam, for multiple reasons

wish i could go back-
exactly one year from now.
11/17/16, the best day of my life
wonder what we would have done for our anniversary today if you were still alive...
i'm left to wonder what could have been a life together, with you
20 is just too ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ young
but, nothing can change the past
no matter how much i wish i could.
love you lots kate
i hope to see you again, somehow...

You're so far yet I can still feel the pain you suffered from afar. You're so close yet I can't hear you anymore.

100 days...

The toughest is, two of those years I told you on the exact day, and now that I've forgotten the exact we met, I don't have you to remind me., or even proof that we met. Things get lost in time, even though you never forget how someone made you feel, and the things you said you would do. I miss you. And it's not so much because you're gone, its because I don't know when are you coming back. Not knowing when will you meet with someone again, that's missing them.

We met 3 years ago. Happy Anniversary, Kate

it's been three months...
feels like at least six

Friends 18

six months ago...

im running out of emojis to post ahhh. i needa buy some more hearts.

<3

you
miss you

Probably because time was going by so fast when Kate and I were together

To me it feels like so much longer.

already

been a month... :/

always on my mind...

Everything is out of place now
So I stay in my room til' it spins
I can feel a surge of sharpness
Like a fresh wound in the wind
We're about to start a new chapter
Serendipitous in nature with this spin
I will be here for you until the year after
And even after we both give into death
How do I know what it means to be saved?
How do I dance with two feet in the grave?
How do I justify a reason to stay?
I wrap my troubles up and dream them away...